Sports Bras, Spandex and Sneakers: Busy week, sometimes I feel like giving up

Wow has our house come a long way in the last week!! Drywall was finished, ceilings painted, lights hung, walls are all painted except the bathroom(I haven't decided what to do yet in there) windows are in and the kitchen cabinets are in the process of being put in! I can honestly say it looks amazing! I can't believe it is my house!!!! Here's a sneak peak!

All last week I stuck to working out every morning Monday-Friday! I ran on Tuesday afternoon, 4.7 miles, wow it was a killer and ran a 5k on Saturday morning. Sleep is something that has eluded me this last week. Cassie doesn't make smart decisions when she is lacking sleep. I have eaten a lot of things I shouldn't have, usually late in the evening when my body starts craving sugar to keep myself awake. I should just go to bed but I feel like I should keep helping on the house. Yesterday was Monday weigh in day. 205.8. That is down 2 pounds this last week. Not great but it is a loss. Now if I get the food issues under control this week I just may see 199 but I am shooting for 202. At 205.8 this is the lowest weight I have ever been. I maintained 206 for a long time but never under!! I have been able to say I lost 140 pounds for a long time but now I can say 141! I am excited to make it 150!

I have some touch up painting to do and roll my bedroom one more time. I am going to try and start that tonight just to get it done. If it isn't raining after work I am going to go for a run. I'd like to get in 3-4 miles a couple times this week and then 5 this weekend. I have to start advancing my mileage if I am going to make it through Dam to Dam in June!!!

I have thought to myself a lot lately. Constantly evaluating every move I make. I am reminding myself a lot of the fact that I can have a treat every now and then. I can skip a workout every now and then. But you are what you do most of the time! I can not skip workouts more frequently then I do them. I can not have treats more often than veggies. You must live as if you are already at goal and live how the person you want to be would live. No matter how far I go, no matter how much that is accomplished there is ALWAYS room for improvement. In any aspect of life. As long as you keep learning you will keep improving. Sometimes I feel like giving up. Like it would just be easier to eat whatever I want, it would be easier to skip the workout time and sleep or shop or play, sometimes this journey is nothing but disappointment and frustration. Then I remember what it was like to try and change my baby's diaper at 346 pounds, I couldn't hardly get on or off the floor, to walk up a flight of stairs...I couldn't breathe at the top, to sit just sit in the heat was miserable, buying clothes was embarrassing, I was always hurting, inside and out. I was reminded last night that this girl has a whole lot of rough life behind her, I've been through it all, I have seen it all first hand, life has been a bitch many times, but the one thing I have learned is you have to work for what you want and under no circumstances do you ever even consider giving in. DON"T GIVE UP!!!