Are you really responsible for you??

This week has been a pretty good week. I am totally suffering from CRS!! (can't remember shit) I have forgotten to pay the house payment, forgot my son's DR apt that he has to have before his surgery Monday, forgotten to turn in some insurance paperwork at work, supposed to write up a workout plan for a co worker!!! Yep all forgotten! Wow has it been supppppper crazy around here. Not so much busy, just stress. My son is having a few difficulties at school. I started out believing that he was a total wild child and running around like a banchi all day. Well not so much. I have been to the school this week and observed. HE IS AN ACTIVE 5 YEAR OLD BOY, I admit it. Needs to learn some patients. But nothing a little time and persistance can't take care of. As I mentioned earlier, preparing for him to have his adenoids out on Monday. My hubby has been out of town for work. I started teaching fitness classes again on Monday. And we're all coming down with this fall head cold CRAP!! But on the up side, my eating has been going very well! Except last night. I did eat a bowl of captain crunch berries and almond milk at 9:30 at night, dumb!! I weighed in this week at 212. I am getting close enough to the 190's now that I am getting antsey and I know if I follow my own rules it will only be a few weeks and I will be there!! I hit the lowest of 206 before I went back up to 226. At 2 pounds a week I should be under 200 by Halloween, however I know I can do more than 2 pounds a week. So...bring on October!!

I am always hearing people talk about diets, exercise, weight loss, diet pills, shakes, fasts, blah blah blah. So here's what I ask them, but often only in my head, How many of these have you tried before? Why didn't they work? Your still sitting here wanting to lose weight. Probably weigh more than when you started the last diet.

And why again did it NOT work???? Yes, uuu huh, sure, yep. I've heard them all and said them too. Let me tell you why it didn't work. YOU didn't stick to the plan. YOU didn't follow the instructions. Weight loss and a healthy lifestyle doesn't just happen. YOU have to make it happen. Yes, I can say this. Yes, I have been morbidly obese. Yes, I have tried all the easy ways out. No they didn't work. Yes I am strong, because I have been weak, Yes, I am fearless because I have been afraid, Yes I am wise because I have been foolish, Yes I am successful because I have failed, tripped up, stumbled, crashed and burned. But what is different this time?? I stopped looking for what was going to make it happen and started behaving like a healthy happy person. I can give you all the tools I have put together. I can give you all the tips that you need. I can tell you exactly what you need to do but if YOU don't do it, IT WON'T WORK!!! You want my meal plan, go ahead, take it. You want my exercise routine, I'll write it up for you. You want to know how I take care of me and my family, I'll tell you. You want to know how I fit in time to prepare healthy meals, I'll show you. But what is the common factor in all of this??? YOU. I can not make you do it. YOU have to do it. So here's to taking responsibility for yourself. It's no one elses fault, it is your fault your where you are now. So YOU take charge, YOU put in the work and then and only then YOU will see success! Have a great night!

Workout without a sports bra?

Today has been a great success! I pretty well had my day planned out last night. Back to my traditional breakfast of an egg sandwich. Out of yogurt, out of ALL my fruit, it's slim pickins around here until I make a grocery run. Left overs for lunch. It wasn't quite enough. I got a little shakey about 2 hours after lunch. I was not prepared for this and did not have snacks with me so I settled for a butter sandwich. Not ideal but I needed something! After work I had planned on going to the gym to do one of my Tapout DVD's in the 90 minutes I had before my son got out of school, when I realized I had packed my pants, shirt, shoes, dvds and NO SPORTS BRA!!! I almost went home! Those of you who are well endowed understand you DO NOT JUMP AROUND WITH OUT A SPORTS BRA ON!! Well after you lose weight and they deflate some, it's reeeeeeallly a bad idea! I headed out of town and then told myself "this isn't what a person who wants to be successful would do, is it?" I turned around and went back to the gym. After all it's 2:15 in the afternoon, whose going to be at the gym to see you??? Answer: Nobody! Literally the desk people and that was it! So I did my dvd, core cross combat. WOW!! My core is a little sore tonight! LOVE IT! Today was weigh in day with my client. 216.4 pounds. Up a little from last week but down from the highest I had gotten over the last two weeks of chaos. I am setting a goal to see 210 next Monday! Big goal, I know. A person can not do this regularly but coming off of poor eating habits for two weeks, I believe it can be easily done. Dedication and hard work is all it takes! Tomorrow is Tapout and a run. I don't know how far yet 2-4 miles depending on how it feels. We had a home victory today. This is the start of the 4th week of school and Trenton was so excited when he got off the bus to tell me that he did not have to stay in for any recesses today!! So I did the worst thing possible and rewarded him with a strawberry sunday. He's been working so hard at trying to sit still. He just has a really hard time with this part of school. But for me no ice cream. Instead I treated myself to an Arnold Palmer Half and Half Zero. (Half lemonade half tea) MMMMMMMMMM yummy. Have a great night everyone and remember if you wait until the right time to start making change you will never change. Make today your someday!!!!

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Sleepless and accountable

So I am feeling defeated tonight. Not only has my eating SUCKED this weekend, I made what seems like a big decision for me. With tears in my eyes my running friend and I decided we were not running the Des Moines Half Marathon in October. I LOVE this run! But I am no where near where I should be in the training for it. Life and poor decisions has gotten in the way of my training program and now I don't feel I have time to get to where I need to be without over doing it. Sometimes the pressure of knowing that I HAVE TO run takes the fun out of the run. So for now it is just strictly going to be my workout and mental release. I want to be back at 5 miles on a regular basis so time to set a plan to make that dream a goal. On second note. Yes my food choices have been very poor. I actually got to spend an evening with my hubby, who is gone A LOT. We went up to Boone, IA to the IMCA Super Nationals. It is dirt track racing. I love everything about racing, dirt track that is! I really don't care for NASCAR. The people, the sound of a suped up motor, the way it makes your heart vibrate when your standing next to a running car, the dirt in my hair, the smell of blueberry alcohol in the modifieds, the rush and again the people! Except when they're drunk and obnoxious and I'm not, lol. But anyway we spent 8 hours at the track, until wee hours of the morning. It was a long night and I only ended up with 3.5 hours of sleep before I went back to work. But I am so glad we went! And saw so many people we haven't seen for 4 or 5 years since Tyler quit racing! But this is what lead to poor food choices. Memories and old times made it so easy to run right back to the steak sandwich booth!! Well anyway, the weekend is over. Weigh in is tomorrow and I will hate the scale! But I did it so I will deal with it. In effort to change the slip of bad habits lately I have decided I will be going to the gym every day after work, this will work 4 days a week, and doing one of my tap out dvd's. My dvd player at home isn't working and I can not figure it out. I work out with my client Monday, Wednesday and Thursday. Starting one week from tomorrow I will start teaching a class again. We're calling it "Circuit Training". It will be a combination of body weight resistance strength training and cardio. Similar to a strength and conditioning or boot camp class like I have tought prior. I am SUPER excited for this. I am also going to try to make a better effort to get up a little earlier in the morning(meaning 3:45, gak!) and get in a workout I would like to add to my every day routine. Check out the 1000's workout!

These are my favorite type of exercise! No equipment needed!

The pain of being overweight

So I've been a little MIA. I alway's tell people the first step in turning around your health and to lose weight is honesty. You have to be honest with yourself. This is one thing I still struggle with. When I am not doing as well as I'd like to be, when I've lost control, I disappear. So yes, I have had a rough two weeks. I have made very poor choices. I drank a little and of course they were foofoo drinks that are LOADED with calories. My exercise has slacked. I don't even know what really sent me into a talespin but I spiraled. Yesterday I managed to pick myself back up. I logged my food and that was all it took. I have control again. I did really well for almost 2 years and then I started to veer off track. I began to lose control of my emotions and those demons that I thought I had delt with started to resurface. I can not say enough that food and lack of exercise is not the problem. The problem comes from the skeletons lurking deep inside your closet. The things that only those close to you know about or maybe even no one knows about. The big events in your life that changed everything. Those are the things that you have to deal with or it will become harder and harder to move on. Over the last 3 years I have changed. More than just the number on the scale, body fat percentage, my pant size or my running distance. The person inside has changed. It is very easy to say "I like me" "I like everything about me" but to truley become confident and grow from within is what happens when you face your troubles. Not only does this bring you along in your weight loss journey but it shows in your work, your play, your parenting, your friendships, your relationships, ect. The person I was when I graduated high school could have never made it to where I am today. Could have never made it through the mud and the muck. It took this change from within to climb the ladder of life and it will continue to take me to the places I plan on going. Often the walls that hold all of this "stuff" inside are broken down through a workout. When your struggleing and all the sudden the tears flood and emotions come rolling out all over the place. This is when you procede in your steps to health of the mind and body. So this I challenge you. Do something to push yourself. A faster jog, an extra set of push ups, go for a walk if your at beginner level, just do something to push harder than what you did today! And this is me, promising you to make a better attempt at staying honest with myself. This means showing up hear wether it's a good or bad day.