The pain of being overweight

So I've been a little MIA. I alway's tell people the first step in turning around your health and to lose weight is honesty. You have to be honest with yourself. This is one thing I still struggle with. When I am not doing as well as I'd like to be, when I've lost control, I disappear. So yes, I have had a rough two weeks. I have made very poor choices. I drank a little and of course they were foofoo drinks that are LOADED with calories. My exercise has slacked. I don't even know what really sent me into a talespin but I spiraled. Yesterday I managed to pick myself back up. I logged my food and that was all it took. I have control again. I did really well for almost 2 years and then I started to veer off track. I began to lose control of my emotions and those demons that I thought I had delt with started to resurface. I can not say enough that food and lack of exercise is not the problem. The problem comes from the skeletons lurking deep inside your closet. The things that only those close to you know about or maybe even no one knows about. The big events in your life that changed everything. Those are the things that you have to deal with or it will become harder and harder to move on. Over the last 3 years I have changed. More than just the number on the scale, body fat percentage, my pant size or my running distance. The person inside has changed. It is very easy to say "I like me" "I like everything about me" but to truley become confident and grow from within is what happens when you face your troubles. Not only does this bring you along in your weight loss journey but it shows in your work, your play, your parenting, your friendships, your relationships, ect. The person I was when I graduated high school could have never made it to where I am today. Could have never made it through the mud and the muck. It took this change from within to climb the ladder of life and it will continue to take me to the places I plan on going. Often the walls that hold all of this "stuff" inside are broken down through a workout. When your struggleing and all the sudden the tears flood and emotions come rolling out all over the place. This is when you procede in your steps to health of the mind and body. So this I challenge you. Do something to push yourself. A faster jog, an extra set of push ups, go for a walk if your at beginner level, just do something to push harder than what you did today! And this is me, promising you to make a better attempt at staying honest with myself. This means showing up hear wether it's a good or bad day.