It has been a really busy week with classes for work, catching up with my work since I was in class, Trent started t ball and I am preparing to go visit my mom in Michigan tomorrow. I missed class on Tuesday. I had not gotten to bed until 12:30 and when I woke up at 4:30 I put on my pants and hoodie and climbed right back into bed. I was so tired but still felt guilty all day for not going! Yesterday I almost didn't go, I was actually texting the girl I ride with to go without me when I put my phone in my pocket and told myself I was going. I ended up working out twice yesterday. I am still struggling with night time binges and after not going to class on Tuesday I just thought I should go. After those two workouts yesterday and my workout this morning my shoulders and lower back are on fire! They have definitely been pushed!
So tonight I have this GYNORMOUS list of things to get done before I can leave for Mom's. I am hoping to go to kickboxing in the morning, come home and shower and take off by 7-7:30 in the morning. I hate to waste the entire day on the road and would like to get there at a decent time. So I must get all the laundry done, bags packed, my staple foods packed, snack's for Trent, movies for the ride, charge the tablet, clean out the car and then load it up!
So as I said earlier, I am still struggling with night time binging. I have to get ahold of this. I am back pedaling again. It's what I always do when I get to this point! It makes me so freaking mad at myself!! I have lost some of the control I used to have and the idea of junk food used to turn my stomach just thinking about it and now it is like I am getting that temporary rush of feel good from this crappy foods! I almost have to detox myself completely to regain control. So that is what I plan to do while I am gone this weekend. What a horrible time to decide to be strict but I must. I will eat breakfast before I leave in the morning, I will pack apples and bananas for snacks on the drive. I plan to find a subway or something of the like along the way for lunch. By that time I should be just outside of Iowa into Illinois. I will Google it today to find a place. I am taking my yogurt, bread, almond milk and protein shakes with me to mom's. I can't expect her to buy all new food because I will be there for 2 days, I'll pack my own:) I do plan on packing some workout clothes but I don't count on getting in any workout other than a little sightseeing. I can not wait to go to Lake Michigan!!! I love watching the waves, it's so relaxing and serene!! NO TREATS this weekend. That means no sugary starchy foods. Easier said than done, yes. Can it be done, Yes!
I will choose my waves and I will not let this little thing defeat me!!
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