I am tired...

I am tired. I am tired of working on our house. I am tired of being stressed all the time about having to get this done and having to get that done. I am tired of not having enough time in the day to do all I need to do. I am tired of having a relationship with my family that consists of "hi honey, how was your day? Oh that's great now lets get this room painted, we have to put this tile here, we have to clean this spot so we can move these things there so we can put this up, go sand this, need to stain that oh did I mention I am out of clean clothes when are you going to do laundry?: And it goes on and on!I am tired. Maybe because I don't have enough time in the day to get everything done and I spend later in the evening trying to get it done when I should be going to bed. I am a creature of habit. and this creature needs sleep!!! 7 hours is ideal! 4-6 hours is kicking my ass! I have felt like poo all week! You would think one would have caught up over the holiday weekend but all we did was work! We did go order our new furniture but aside from that couple hours it was work, work, work!

Among all the time I was working on things this weekend I did a lot of thinking. I do that a lot any more. Thinking about my goals and where I am at in relation to them. Before I start, Yes I feel the scale is important. With that being said. I do want the number to go down but does it matter what that number says if you look good??? Really? If you like how you look and your healthy and happy then what does that number have to do with anything?? So I am changing focus. Yes I will still weigh daily because I am an addict. I have a scale addiction. I am however turning my focus to performing the actions it takes to get the look I am trying to achieve. What does this mean??? Well I have a 5k Saturday morning and I will begin this new routine on Sunday. I have arranged for Grandma time for Trenton a couple times a week so I can get in a short run. By short I mean 2-4 miles and then a strength training routine. I have spent time learning and following some trainers, fitness models and body builders. I have learned from them and put together my own strength routine. Ideally I will follow this routine at least through the summer and see what happens. How will I judge my success?? Through pictures. If the picture is changing then I am changing which means it is working! So we shall see, however; I do have some positive vibes about this!!

I have looked a lot at my food choices for the last couple of years. Binges aside I eat a very low carb diet. These are my trigger foods so I tend to stay away. However; I am a raging, hormonal, unhappy, snappy, crabby bitch! This is like a body builder on steroids attitude. IT MUST GO! This does not mean it is a free for all. I am learning how to introduce healthy carbs again in moderation. I love things like sweet potatoes and squash that are good for you foods and will get my carbs that way and not in white potatoes and pasta. I do have a more detailed plan than this but I am not going to type it all out. If your interested you will ask.

Any way I better get moving. I have a lot of work to accomplish today before I run out of day! Have a magnificent day and remember "You've got this"

Cassie