I'm 30 and I'm training to be badass!

I made it through the 20's and as of yesterday am now 30. I did a lot of thinking this morning and on my way to work. I had SOOOOO much fun this weekend!!! Why? Because I gave myself a free pass to not worry about the scale, to not worry about what I ate and not worry about what I drank. I allowed myself to enjoy the moment. I visited with people I don't see every day. I had a blast while all of us "grown ups" acted like 18 year olds again! I am so glad I decided to join the block party Saturday night instead of keeping my birthday celebration separate. We had TONS of food, yard games, music, drinks and even more people! Here is my BFF and myself about half way through the night!

I have made the decision to put the scale away for the rest of the month. I will get it out on September 1. I will focus on the healthy daily habits and not the result. If you focus on the habits the results will follow. I will make good food choices, I will drink my water (I am so dehydrated right now from Saturday night and playing volleyball yesterday that my lips are peeling!) no late night eating and regular exercise.

I have come to the conclusion that

 

1. Yes, I still want to lose a few pounds but I want to be a healthy person more than a number on the scale  that shows my body's relation to gravity.

 

2. I want health in entirety, not just a healthy weight, that really doesn't mean shit if the rest of your life is not in balance.

 

3. I want to enjoy life as it happens and not let the scale depress me and be my focus every day while I let everything else in the world pass me by.

 

 

Is this me giving up?? Absolutely not!! This is me focusing on the beauty of life! There is so much out there to see and experience! It is time I do that!!

 

 

I played volleyball yesterday with a group of people. I am HORRIBLE at volleyball but I love playing. In the beginning I always have butterflies in my tummy, afraid of what kind of fool I will make of myself. But who really cares, everyone screws up, does something stupid, hits the ball to the wrong place, whatever, laugh about it and go on. Once I got over this I actually started playing and the errors became less. Don't get me wrong I still need some practice, A LOT, but I was able to have fun and not be scared once I let that go. So that is what I am doing with life. I am letting the stress go so life isn't passing me by.

 Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you've imagined!