Queen of Sabotage!

I have to admit I am the Queen of Self Sabotage! I have done this every time I get close to 199. I make sure it doesn't happen! Why???? What the hell is it about that number that makes me back step? The last two nights I have eaten total crap, late at night when I am not even hungry to begin with!!

 

Why do I keep making sure this doesn't happen??? I can honestly say this is one behavior I have that I have not figured out the source of! I have learned a lot about myself and have figured out why I do a lot of the things I do. But this one I just don't understand!

If I had not done this to myself SOOOOOOO many times now I would be at my goal. I always get close to a goal and then back step and throw myself off the tracks!

 So I am making a promise to myself to make today the best that it can be. Clean eating, lots of water and I have a list of things to do once I get home tonight to keep myself busy and stay out of the chips!!! I may have already gotten to far off track to reach the goal I had set for Monday but I will try my best. I am letting go of the guilt and moving forward from right now.

So today is short and sweet but it is what it is and I have to be accountable. I may try to run tonight if it is not raining, but I think it is supposed to. Just know if you sabotage yourself you are not alone, but only you can stop the cycle. It's time to stop it!