Stress

I usually post when everything is all rainbows and butterflies, well this week that has not been the case. Hence my blog hiatus recently. I am not a person that stresses about much. It takes a LOT to get me stirred up. A LOT! This hasn't always been me. I used to stress over everything and it ate me alive!! This week it seems as though nothing is going the way it should be! Everything is making me cry and TOM is not even near so it's not hormonal. Just plain old stress of life.

My car has been making a funny noise so we took it to the dealership on Tuesday and I should have it back today, along with a nearly $2000 bill!!!! AAAAAHHHHH SHIT!  $2000 freaking dollars! I lost it, a few times over this!!

Evedn through this I managed to maintain good eating habits on Tuesday. Wednesday I did good all day! Wednesday weigh in showed 205.4, so that was a 1.6 pound loss from last week. Except after I weighed last week I thought I would give myself a treat and it turned into a 2 day binge! I was up nearly 5 pounds. I managed to lose that along with the additional 1.6, so I was happy with that. This Wednesday was not as bad with the eating but I did do it again. I let the stress of the car win! It was stupid! And a true binge, I sat in the dark and cried over what I had done with overwhelming guilt after I regained control. So now I am again playing catch up to work off the damage the binge did. Again yesterday I was pretty stressed. When I am stressed, if I don't eat it away I am very quiet. So last night was a good night for quietness. After supper we sat down and watched Pitch Perfect. It was a great movie. I laughed and laughed!! Even Tyler liked it! I was up until almost midnight, so I did not hear my alarm at all at 4:15 this morning, I missed kick boxing. With a big goal of seeing 199.9 by Wednesday it was a bad week to miss class so I MUST make myself run this afternoon and Saturday and Sunday. My struggle this weekend will be to stay away from the beer!! All I want is a campfire and a case of miller light!! This will not help me get to my goals!

I have also found myself missing the past this weekend. I don't know what has happened to some people and then I wonder where the heck my friends are? I have decided that girls and I don't mesh well. That's ok. I will not let others bring me down. I am just me and if you don't like it that is your choice and that is ok. There are others that will.

So in the short this will need to be a focused weekend. I will need to keep myself busy and stay away from the fridge! I want this goal before the 4th of July, it is something I have never seen before in my journey! I probably haven't been under 200 since jr high!!!

So to you and I have a great weekend!