YAY MUSCLE!

Boy have I been all over the place in the last week since I last posted. Not physically just mentally. When I am down, I am down and when I am up I am up! Last week was pretty rough for me. Lots of junk food. Lots of late night eating. Even a few drinks, which is not typical for me. I am usually just a social drinker and I do believe there was one night I had 7up and grape pucker for supper!!!! Opps :)

Two weeks ago on my Facebook page I started a weekly challenge. Week one was to drink water. Not pop, soda, crystal light or mio, just plain old water. This really worked for me! I have not had crystal light since Sunday June 2! This is magnificent since I usually drink anywhere from 5-15 packets per day! I always thought I was better off to have the low calorie drink and deal with the consequences of the artificial sweeteners. Deep down, not sure if I believed all the hype about artificial sweeteners. However; I do what to share this. It is said that artificial sweeteners increase cravings and still cause an insulin spike even though they are no/low calorie and not real sugar. What can I tell you has happened the last 10 days? I have not had severely intense cravings like I normally do. I actually feel like I am in control of my food! Wow is it really that easy? No it is not easy. This journey is never easy but some days are better than others and eliminating the drink mixes has helped make it less of a struggle! Why did I not try that a LONG time ago!!

When ever I am feeling in control I tend to revisit my goals and set some crazy new goal that I never reach because I lose the control after one or two days. But I did this again yesterday. I talked with someone I used to weigh in with once a week (sending a text of a picture of my feet on the scale) and I asked if I could start weighing again. I have not done this for a few months now. I got very frustrated seeing everyone else's success but not my own. Yes, I was jealous. But I am over that now and am moving on with myself. I gained back a few and am losing them again. I had been down to 205 but then right back up as high as 218. This is what I saw yesterday. My weigh in day is now Wednesday. I am not sure why but I think I will like that better than Mondays.


210.0 Very poor picture



And this is the chart I made. It has every Wednesday on it from now through August with a column for weight, # lost and next weeks goal.

 

I decided to start tracking it this way again because when I step on every morning, no I don't practice what I preach, and see a .5 loss or 1.0 gain it seems like I am going nowhere but to see a cumulative one week will help. I also set a goal for the next week. I cought myself looking months out and setting huge goals! I always do this too and it's not feasible let alone an awful mind game to play with yourself. So I have weekly goals to reach my next mile stone goal. I realized last week that my birthday is coming. I AM GOING TO BE 30 in only 2 months! My goal between now and then is 21 pounds. I want to see 189 by August 11. I think I have got this. So I will report back on next Wednesday to see where I am at.

On another note, why you should exercise. What you eat determines the number on the scale, how you exercise determines your body type.
All the women in this photo are 150 pounds. Which body would you rather have?? The one that exercises?

That's my choice, the far right!! That is an awesome goal and it takes time to get there, lots of time to build muscle. This does not happen over night and takes consistency day in and day out. So anyway where I was going with this is yesterday I was in my bosses office and she says, "have you lots more weight?" I said "Well, no, lol." She then replies with "I think you look like you have, I think you look better now then when you first lost all your weight."

This was not meant to be offensive, you just have to know my boss. Point being that I may still weigh the nearly the same as I did 6 months ago but I have worked out differently and I am building muscle. Muscle is smaller than fat and looks better, even though it weighs more!

Yay muscle!!!

I'll end with this!