Well it is my only day off for the week. I find a day at home is often the toughgest to stay on track. It should be easy at home with no temptations but nope, it's not. I have been through many phases of eating habits, for example I used to eat what ever I wanted and however much I wanted. I would just be sure to stay within my calories. Then I started eating really low calorie foods so I could eat a lot of food but stay with in my calories. Currently, especially on a day like today, I eat servings. I have a specific number of protiens, grains, veggies, fruits, and fats that are planned for each meal and a snack in between meals. Yes, I have to follow a plan. I am weak. I am easily swayed, I do not have control so therefore I have to follow this plan. What happened to the good old eat when your hungry? I don't know but it doesn't work for me. It should be that simple shouldn't it. But it's not.

For some people eating isn't a problem. They don't have weight/health issues. Food is not on their mind 24/7. Eating when they are hungry works for them. Those are the kind of people that will never understand people like me. Not that there is anything wrong with someone that is like that but they can not relate because they don't understand.

Let me try to make this a little more clear for some of you. This is how I work, and many others. If you set a bowl of cocaine in front of an addict  and say only one snort, or what ever they call it, you can only have one and then you walk away. What do you expect to happen?? Your looney if you think they will only take one snort! They will take one and then another, and another and another and another until the bowl is gone and then they will be on a rampage for more no matter how much they have had they need more. That is me. Only its not a drug. It is bread, pasta, sweets, cakes, chocolate, ice cream, potatoes...I can't have them. Not even just one. So those of you that say come on you can have just one, its not going to kill you. Yes, Yes it will. I have one now and then I want another and another. And just like an addict would behave I will sneak food when no one is looking, I will find excuses to get away so I can find something else, even though it gives me a head ache and my stomach hurts, and maybe TMI but anymore I even get horrible diarrhea and no it donesn't stop a person like me from going on a binge and uncontrolable binge.

So this is why on days like today I plan ahead. I know what I am eating. I fill my schedule with things to do, even if it is washing last nights work out clothes or scrubbing the pee off the bathroom floor, I have to have a schedule. And god for bid if you throw a wrench in my plans the whole day may come to a hualt.

Make your plan for today and stay on track. People don't plan to fail, they fail to plan. Be prepared for what life will throw at you and it isn't so hard to catch it but when you are not ready and out of the blew comes a speed ball its going to hit you in the gut and take a few days to recover. Lets not waist a few days on that!!

On the flip side I am getting really nervous for the Warrior Dash on Saturday morning and then turning around and doing Bar2Barbara on Saturday night. I believe that six mile run may eat me alive after warrior dash!!

NO COCAINE TODAY, lol