Your life is your own...

So I have had a lot weighing on my mind lately. Thinking about life...no, I'm not some crazy depressed mad woman who will jump off a bridge tomorrow. I've been thinking about life and where I want it to go and what I want out of it. I can not say that I have that all figured out just yet, but I have figured out what I don't want. I don't want to be the one always trying to make everyone else happy. I've been that person for a very long time and what always happens?? Someone you trust breaks glass all over the side walk and makes you walk over it if you want the friendship to continue. Yes even in the grown up world there are still small children inside a grown persons body that act like this and then there are still people like me who don't want to stir the pot or rock the boat so they just go on as others wish. Not thinking about what they would like. Not any more! I am sorry if you cross my path on the wrong day, but I am done. And really, I'm not sorry. This is the way it is and this is how it is going to be.

There have been and continue to be so many times that people take advantage of kindness and see it as weakness. Well little did they know they're continuous taking advantage of this lady has made one hellaciously strong person. You want to test it?? I don't suggest it.

I am learning that it truely doesn't matter what others think. It doesn't matter what I have, what others have, what someone says to my face. Very few people are ballsey enough to say the truth to anyone's face anyway. What they say behind my back says how they really feel, thier actions when I am not around, those circumstances that show a persons true character...that is what now matters. People like this will think they are not the ones I am talking about, people like this think they can do things in secret and you'll never know. Wrong again,

I will not let others run my life. I want to be happy with all aspects of my life. If that means I go on 6 vacations in one year, if I camp in my back yard all summer, if I hunt in the winter with my husband, run another half marathon or two or never run again(highly unlikely), climb Mt Everest, take 5 years to build a house the way I want it because it's they way I want it, ride a motorcycle, be loud and crazy, drink beer when I want to, color in the coloring book with my son, ect. Whatever it is I will be happy because it is what I wanted for my family and I. It's not fake, it's real.

Don't get me wrong. I will not be mean. I will not be rude. I will not be one of "those" people that I am talking about. But I will be honest. I will be upfront and I will do what I wish weather you and the rest of society approves or not. I know my abilities and inabilities. I am knowledgeable, confident, secure, respectful and sincere. So why not live for myself and family, not for everyone else.

How are you living yours? Are you the bat, the ball or the batter?? It's your choice to be what you want. So what is stopping you?


On another note weighed in this afternoon, 222.4 which is down 2.6 since last Monday. Goal this week...good buy 220's!
Get up and go kick some ass!!